Here and there...

So many interesting things happening. Barack elected. Gas prices dropping. But many more negative things occurring. The market. The wars. Fear. I really believe that in a randomly assorting universe we're motivated by only two impulses -- either love or fear. Both are choices we make. So many things...so quiuckly....assaulting our senses. Our tendency is to -- I think -- numb ourselves to what we experiencing so that we can manage it and get through the day. But when that happens to me I have to keep reminding myself that I'm missing the point. The point isn't to get through the day, or to feel numb to survive. I believe we live to avoid being numb. Hurt. Pain Joy. Happiness. Disappointment. Frustration. Elation. Those feelings make us alive. We have to experience them. It's why we're here. The numbness, the deadness inside we feel as a response to life hurts us. At that point we've chosen fear. I won't chose fear. I'll keep choosing to experience, to feel. Even if I don't know just yet what those feelings mean, or where they're taking me.