#5

I like being alone. I've been alone since '97. Not always happily. I have had a relationship here or there. But I've learned how to be alone. I'm not set in my ways. And I could very easily include someone. Wouldn't mind it actually. But being with someone isn't a requisite for my happiness. I'm ok alone. I know me pretty well. And that's the point of this entry....not to protest too much....but rather to just look at a reality. One has to be comfortable in one's own skin. I am. Especially if one considers blending with another. Before that one has to learn to be alone. To get comfortable with themselves. To learn to lead your own life. Initially, I couldn't do it. Fear overwhelmed me. I had always been with people. Family, marriage. I had real difficulty quieting the monkey noise in my brain when I found myself alone. It took awhile. It involved meditation. And breathing. But one gets the hang of it.